Sunday, May 16, 2010
Yes, I know there are plenty of posts about him lately, but between graduation and getting his college paperwork taken care of...he's got alot of stuff written on my "to-do" list.
Yesterday was difficult for me, something that I didn't expect...I was helping him get ready to go to his girlfriend's prom, they go to different schools (next week is his prom). He got most of his stuff on here, and was going to go to her parents to finish up and take pictures etc.
I walk him to his car, get his A/C cranking, hang his tuxedo jacket in the back, and give him a kiss...and sob.
Teary-eyed as I type this too. All week I was SO excited for him to go, couldn't wait to see him in his tux, helped him pick out flowers. Why now am I feeling so heartbroken?
I think part of me worries so much about my boys leaving...and not seeing much of them when they go. I mean, my mom and I hang out, go to movies together, that sort of thing...but how often do grown men want to go and just hang out alone with their mothers? Am I destined to be the butt of every "mother-in-law" joke on the planet? You've seen the movies...where the wife says "Yeah, but YOUR MOTHER" was here!"
I want to be included in my grandchildren's births, but I know her mom has first dibs...I want to help when there is a problem, but I know she'll turn to her own mother first for help. It's normal and natural (I think) for it to be that way...
I wonder if other moms of boys have these fears? Am I just making myself crazy with it?
Am I going to drive my husband insane when these kids leave??? Is there enough chocolate on the planet to get me through this???
Posted by One Girl in a House of Men at 4:40 AM